Flowing Book by Lαδy Toяi ♥, on Flickr
Some years go by in a blur. Other years are filled with life changing events. Looking back, it seems as if each year has its own personality. Some years are filled with lots of happy and joyful moments. While other years are more challenging. I’m beginning to look back at 2011 and the funny thing is I’m not quite sure what kind of year it has been. There have been moments of new ventures — yet there has also been the need for quiet surrender & soul-contemplation. At this moment, if I had to pick a few words to describe this year it would be a year of Surrender & Just Showing Up.
When I go into my tailspin of not knowing what to do next with my life, my ever-wise husband, Wes, says, “Just show up.” I wish I could say that I always followed his guidance gracefully, but most times I squirm and whine but yet I show up. But he’s right. Making our dreams come true requires us to show up. Even when it seems as if we’re the only ones at the party. Sometimes the simplest act of participation makes way for glorious creation that otherwise would never come to pass.
This year required lots and lots of just showing up. Most days I just couldn’t catch a glimpse of the bigger picture. I’m a girl who likes to know the destination ahead of time. So this whole showing up in the mystery thing goes against my nature. But that’s what the Universe asked of me this year. And you know what? It turned out to be a pretty cool year. For instance — I didn’t start out 2011 with any kind of plan to begin designing web sites for other practitioners. Yet, that’s what came to pass. And I love doing it. A new joyful adventure was born through the leap into the unknown.
Life doesn’t always give us blueprints and guarantees. So much of life requires leaps of faith and waiting in seemingly empty spaces for Spirit to fill the void. God requires us to bring our energy to the point of creation so that manifestation can begin.
2011 feels like a year that has required tremendous courage and tenacity.
I don’t know of anyone who has had an easy-breezy year. Things are in a state of flux and many of us are navigating into the wide mysterious expanse of the seemingly unknown. Yet, there is adventure in the air. The energy is increasing and our genius is being put to use as we explore the new landscape of what life is asking us to become.
My experience this year has been one of surrendering into the moment and following the seemingly quiet whispers of my heart. This wasn’t a year that responded well to goals. Rather it has been steeped in the not-knowing and following the heartbeat of my dreams. Step-by-step the path became clearer. I gasped for breath and hoped the next step took me somewhere beautiful. I struggled to find the courage and impetus to boldly create in the world. But it was the quiet actions of my soul that created the greatest impact. Following the breadcrumbs of what brings me joy lightened my spirit. It’s been a time of saying yes to the sweet invitations the angels bring to my doorstep by way of friends and clients who ask us to take them on mystical adventures.
The angels are telling me that this is an important week for reflection. They’re asking me to spend time writing and reflecting upon where I have been and where I dream of going next. The portal of potential is awake and awaiting my intentions.
To support intentional reflection and intention, this week I’m spending time with my copy of Goddess Leonie’s 2012 Creating My Goddess Year Workbook. It’s reminding me to look at my life through the eyes of compassion and love. Sometimes I just want to chuck the old year out the door. But 2011 feels like a time when beautiful wisdom was born. I’m really looking forward to going through the process in the workbook for reflecting upon 2011. I’ll be blogging a bit about it – if you want to join me, you’re invited to do so.
I’m so grateful for the opportunity to share this journey with you. You help give me the courage to Just Show Up and play in the Light!